happy new year!

today is like nothing different.
i thought i would be happy and great and celebrated it as excited as hell, but there's nothing.
it's just a usual day, a usual weekend, a usual sunday morning sunday afternoon and sunday night.

and once again i was stood up.
i thought it's already ok to me to get another stood up but i felt bad as hell.
i've told myself a thousand times to never believe in this person anymore.
cause it hurts.
i wanted to be like a robort.
like no emotion.
like what i said is done.
but i'm just humanbeing.
i don't know anything about forgiving.
all i know it's not a good thing to me.
i'm not happy, this new year.

god, bsb sucks.