let go

说不上为什麽，好像上帝对一切了如指掌，于是故意戏弄凡俗，不遗余力的娱乐我们，我们

也同样愉快地被娱乐着。

每天去看邮箱，热切盼望能有他的只字片语，但却都失望而归。当我看出这个中真谛，决定不再愚人愚己，不在自寻烦恼，不再为并不存在的东西伤神。却看见他的名字乖乖的躺在收件箱里。 正是我放开的那一天。

更多的时候，我越是let go,收到的结果就越好。
god over head.


那天去office hour 愉快极了，决定放手，只做朋友。既然不能爱，既然没有机会，就不要对自己勉强。 看见他和他老婆幸福极了，决定祝福，决定远望，不钻牛角尖。 真心真意。

上个星期,或者上上个星期，应该是我最爱他的时候，但也许我现在更爱他。who know?
maybe i do not love him ,just rely on him.
but rely on is even worse than love.

i don't want to require too much ,just be easier ,and happier.
and now i got it.
but i am still afraid of tomorrow. still afraid of to say goodbye.still afraid of that day i have to have the last sight of him . and afraid of those days without him.

the things you see ,the way you see them
may never be seen again

what if i will never see him again .

maybe .....or maybe not.

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