i forced myself to send some emails for job application. seaching, sending, all of this stuffs. i'm so used to relax, but money is a huge problems to me. all i have is 5 yuan right now.

i actually feel peace these days. this is a perio of time for me to think and get ready for new stuffs. i do feel good but the big problem is mommy. she made me feel so useless. what a pity.

well i got Jason's email today. just right after i send those emails. he made me peace. he talks about how God help him through the pains. i knew. i'm thinking about to be a Christian too but yes not because of him. but i hope he can help me in some ways. i need him to explain something to me. he's difinitly a friend to me right now. I still love him but in a different way. still hope i can see him soon. when will be the housewarming?

Let's go outside!