MY HAPPY ENDING

看见izeron的胡言乱语，伤感得掉眼泪。
忽然觉得好适合avirl的happy ending。
到达happy ending的过程都是考验和磨难，但是究竟到底有没有一个happy ending.
到底怎样才算是happy ending.

年轻的时候觉得五年就像永远那么远，生怕会做出五年以后会让自己后悔的决定；
现在仍然觉得五年就象一辈子那么远，但是却为五年以前没有做出的决定后悔。

我到底要想些什么打算些什么才对，到底一辈子就这么轻描淡写的过了。
只为一人，一切都不一样了。
我怕我会一直不快乐，一直一直直到死。
我怕我命里注定就是个有好日子没好过的人。
我怕有些东西一辈子都不会改变。
我怕我会就这样死去。
如果这是一场游戏，为什么我不是其中最尽兴的玩家。
如果这是一首乐曲，为什么奏不出我生命中最亮丽的华彩。
如果这就是happy ending, 为什么我根本感觉不到happy.

我希望我能是个没有遗憾的人，听起来多么响亮。
那么完满，那么知足，那么让人嫉妒。
我却连说出口的勇气都没有。
尽管我也知道，如果一切重来，什么都不会改变。
每个人真的都有自己的destiny.
不管选择什么不选什么结果都会一样。

在学校的那天，遇到一个男孩。
他的样子，像我的初恋情人，甚至就连感觉也似曾相识。
可是一面之缘。
我可能再也没有机会看到他，再也不会想起他。
却简单的这么美好。
被误会成情侣的感觉也没有什么不好，那么暧昧，like pink.
那天早上，我梦见大猫，我那么炽烈的吻她。
尘缘多美。

"i don't want to fall to pieces
i just want to sit and stare at you
i don't want to talk about it
i don't want a conversation
i just want to cry in front of you
i don't want to talk about it
'cos i'm in love with you "

开始听avril的第二张专辑时就想唱这几句给陈。
我就想要这一点点，但是他做不到。
因为我说了谎，我会要更多更多。
所以我只好邀请他吃饭，在能见到他时去见他，在见到他时送他甜甜的糖果。
他说喜欢看见我，因为每次我都会带些特别的东西给他。
昨天早上又梦到他，很久没有了，也许是因为回来的那天看到他孤零零的自行车伤感。
还好我不会考研，还好我不会留在学校，不然下个学期他走了，我就看什么都不对了。
虽然一样看不到他，但是总不用耳渎目染。

在心园和玲子吃饭的时候遇到陈了。
心惊动魄的打招呼之后她问我你脸红个什么劲。
哈哈，现在每个人都知道了。
就连不明就里的玲子，都一目了然。
陈会不会知道呢？陈怎么会不知道呢？
我多么希望可以向他表白呀。
多么希望遭到他的拒绝后惊天地泣鬼神的大哭一场。
多么名正言顺理直气壮呀。
多么希望他的手上没有戒指。
多么希望他也可以爱我。

izeron呀，什么时候去唱歌呢？我要去唱后来，然后看你哭出来。


oh oh oh
oh oh oh
so much for my happy ending

lets talk this over
it's not like we're dead
was it something I did?
was it something you said?

don't leave me hanging
in a city so dead
held up so high
on such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
and I thought we could be

You were everything, everything
that I wanted
we were meant to be, supposed to be
but we lost it
all of our memories so close to me
just fade away
all this time you were pretending
so much for my happy ending

you've got your dumb friends
i know what they say (they say)
they tell you I'm difficult
but so are they (so are they)
but they don't know me
do they even know you (even know you)
all the things you hide from me
all the s*** that you do (all the s*** that you do)

You were all the things I thought I knew
and I thought we could be

You were everything, everything
that I wanted
we were meant to be, supposed to be
but we lost it
all of our memories so close to me
just fade away
all this time you were pretending
so much for my happy ending

It's nice to know that you were there
thanks for acting like you care
and making me feel like I was the only one
it's nice to know we had it all
thanks for watchin' as I fall
and letting me know we were done